amazing print by Ashley G.
today is not the best day.
and i feel bad because this is becoming an ever increasing trend. i'm currently nearing the end of my 4th year of graduate school and the non-stop frustration and seeming lack of an end of sight is really becoming far too much to handle.
science is hard. there is no guarantee of results or progress for all the work and time that you put into an experiment; and it kills me to think that in 4 years i've done little more than spin my wheels. yes, i've gained numerous experimental skills and learned to think like a scientist. more importantly i've also learned that i LOVE to teach and that i'm actually quite good at it. lately, however, the stress and anxiety just doesn't seem worth it.
i'm hoping that its just a rut. i mean no one likes to do the same thing for 4 years straight. but i'm not really sure how to shake things up and unfortunately my boss is not really the best with advice or guidance...
sigh, anyways, i feel a whole lot better to get that off my chest. thanks for listening.
now hopefully back to regularly scheduled happy programming ;)
Goodness, I am SO GLAD to read this. Certainly not glad that it's so hard for you, and I know that it still sucks a lot of the days, but maybe it's a little better knowing that there's someone out there who feels as close to exactly like you do as possible for being a different person. I am at the end of my fourth year, spinning my wheels, and loving teaching, too. I don't have any answers for you other than try to keep spending the time that you're not in lab doing things that fill you up, so you can pour it all out again the next day. Hang in there!
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